4/2/26

NIGHT PRAYER: Holy Thursday


We all know that on the night before he died, Jesus had his last supper with his friends, which is the scriptural source for our understanding the gift of the Eucharist. But what happened after that supper is a lesson for us in the humanity of Jesus - and of our own human weakness...   
Then Jesus went with them to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to his disciples, “Sit here, while I go over there and pray."  And taking with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled. Then he said to them, “My soul is sorrowful, even to death; remain here and watch with me.” And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.”
 
And he came to the disciples and found them sleeping. And he said to Peter, “So, could you not watch with me one hour? Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Again, for the second time, he went away and prayed, “My Father, if this cannot pass unless I drink it, your will be done.” And again he came and found them sleeping, for their eyes were heavy. So, leaving them again, he went away and prayed for the third time, saying the same words again. Then he came to the disciples and said to them, “Sleep and take your rest later on. See, the hour is at hand, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us be going; see, my betrayer is at hand.” 
- Matthew 26:36-56
Tonight's prayer is taken from Days of the Lord.  It's a dialogue between Jesus and myself, just as he's about to enter the Garden of Gethsemane after the Last Supper...
 
                                            Photo by Vedad Colic

Do not go into the garden, oh Jesus,
do not go into the garden before dawn!

But if I do not go into the garden  
in the dead of night,
who will lead you 
to the sunrise of Paradise?
I will go into the garden in the dead of night. 
 
Do not let them bind your hands, oh Jesus,
do not let them bind your hands without a word!

If I do not let them bind my hands like a thief,
who will break open the prisons
in which you languish?

I will let them bind my hands like a thief.
 
Do not hang on the cross, oh Jesus,
do not hang on the cross 'til you die!

If I do not hang on the cross like a bird,
who will protect you from the flames of hell?

I will hang on the cross like a bird.
 
Do not let your heart be pierced, oh Jesus,
do not let your heart be pierced by executioners!

If I do not let my heart be pierced like a ripe fruit,
from whom will you drink the blood and water
that will heal you?

I will let my heart be pierced
like a ripe fruit.
 
Do not go to into the tomb, oh Jesus,
do not go into the tomb that they have dug!

If I do not go into the tomb
like a grain of wheat,
who will lift from your coffins your lifeless bodies?
I will go into the tomb to sleep there.
 

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Protect us, Lord, while we're awake
    - and when we nod asleep -
that awake, we might keep watch with you
    and asleep, find mercy in your peace...
 
Amen. 

Two musical offerings tonight, both instrumental.  The first is entitled Agony in the Garden and the second No Words. I've chosen these in the hope that we'll take some time to listen, imagining ourselves in the garden, with Jesus, awake, in prayer with him...

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Agony in the Garden 
 

No Words by The Vigil Project







  

  

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Chag Pesach samech!

  

 To all my Jewish friends and neighbors,      

    Chag Pesach samech! 

            Happy Passover!
 

  

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Pause for Prayer: HOLY THURSDAY

 
    Our Humble God by Howard Banks

On Holy Thursday night at the Evening Mass of the Lord's Supper, we hear in the gospel how Jesus washed the feet of his friends and commanded them to do likewise

If I, therefore, the master and teacher,
   have washed your feet,
      you ought to wash one another’s feet.
I have given you a model to follow,
   so that as I have done for you,
      you should also do...

Pause for Prayer on Holy Thursday

Jesus, you're waiting to wash my feet 
    at the end of a long day’s work 
    at home, at the office, 
    at the plant or on the road...
 
And you're waiting to wash my feet 
    if they haven’t moved much all day long
        because they throb with the pain of arthritis...
    or because the sticks I call my legs 
        just don’t move as well as they used to...
 
Jesus, you're waiting to wash my feet
    no matter how bad they smell or how ugly they are,
        regardless of aging toenails or corns or bunions.
 
Jesus, you're waiting to wash my feet 
    because they’re my feet - and you love them...
You wait because you love me 
    - from the tip of my toes to the top of my head...

Jesus, you're waiting to wash away 
    whatever has stained my heart
You wait to wash away my sins, especially the ones 
    that embarrass and shame me....

Jesus, you're waiting to wash away 
    the fears and anxieties I carry
        by the bushel and backpack
     'til I'm bent over with worry’s weight 
        hunching and burdening my shoulders...

Jesus, you're waiting to wash away
    the bad dreams that haunt my sleep
and the desires that derail me
    as I try to lead a good life...

Jesus, you're waiting to wash away 
    the prejudice that keeps me
from loving and washing the feet 
    of others who aren’t just like me...

Jesus, you're waiting to wash my hands clean
    of the selfishness and greed
that lead me to treat others 
    unfairly, unjustly, dishonestly...

Jesus, you're waiting to wash my hands 
    of their violence, 
    of any harm they’ve threatened,
    of any damage they've done...

Jesus, you're waiting to wash away 
    whatever comes between you and me,
    whatever comes between me and my neighbor,
    whatever comes between me 
        and becoming the person you call me to be...
 
Jesus, you're waiting to wash my feet 
    because they’re my feet - and you love them
and because you love me
    even, and especially, 
        when I don't love myself...
 
And as you wash my feet, Lord,
    help me learn to wash the feet
        of all I meet and know...

Jesus waits to wash my feet
    because he loves me 
        from the tip of my toes 
            to the top of my head...
 
Amen.

Today's Pause for Prayer offers three versions of Where Charity and Love Prevail, a hymn sung every year at the Evening Mass of the Lord's Supper.

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Where charity and love prevail,
there God is ever found;
Brought here together by Christ’s love,
by love are we thus bound.

With grateful joy and holy fear
His charity we learn;
Let us with heart and mind and soul
now love him in return.

Forgive we now each other’s faults
as we our faults confess;
And let us love each other well
in Christian holiness.

Let strife among us be unknown,
let all contention cease;
Be his the glory that we seek,
be ours his holy peace.

Let us recall that in our midst
dwells God’s begotten Son;
As members of his body joined,
we are in Christ made one.

No race or creed can love exclude,
if honored be God’s name;
Our family embraces all
whose Father is the same.

A remarkable choral setting with the composer at the keyboard:

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And another musical setting, in Latin, from Taize:

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Ubi caritas et amor, Deus ibi est
    (Where there are charity and love, there is God) 
Ubi caritas, Deus ibi est. 
    (Where there is love, there is God)

 

  

  

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4/1/26

NIGHT PRAYER: Wednesday in Holy Week


For Night Prayer, we'll pick up on the theme from this morning's Pause for Prayer which was based on this scripture:
 
One of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests and said,
"What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?" They paid him thirty pieces of silver 
and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over. When it was evening, Jesus reclined at table with the Twelve. And while they were eating, he said, "Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me." Deeply distressed at this, they began to say to him one after another, "Surely it is not I, Lord?" He said in reply, "He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me is the one who will betray me.. It would be better for that man if he had never been born."
Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply, "Surely it is not I, Rabbi?" He answered, "You have said so..."
 

Reflection
On the night before he died, Jesus was betrayed by the worst in us all...  It's easy to point the finger at Judas - in fact it's too easy...  Each of us, at one time or another,
plays one of the roles in the story of the suffering and death of Jesus - and that includes the role of Judas who betrayed his Lord...

Prayer
I come this night, Lord, with my heart aware 
of how I've betrayed you
in thought, word and deed
and in my failure to think, to speak, to act...

You are my Lord but you are also my brother,
    my companion and my friend
and many are the ways I've been unfaithful
    to you and all you offer me...

Sometimes I plot
    - if not against you -
then against the grace and the blessings
    you never cease to offer me...

Some days, some nights, I fail to honor
    the love in which you hold me,
    the embrace with which you protect me,
    the strength with which you shield me...

Judas was bold in what he did, Lord:
    my betrayals are often born of my weakness,
    my lukewarm faith,
    my timid witness,
    my cowardly spirit... 

I don't want to face the fact that I betray you, Lord
    - but I know I have, I know I do -
and so I pray to you this night:
    have mercy on me, a sinner...

Make me more faithful to you, Lord,
    to your word, your wisdom
and to the steadfast love
    you never fail to offer me...

I trust you, Lord, and pray that you'll trust me
    to return to you this holy week
with my whole heart, my mind and soul,
    in thought and word and deed...
 
Protect me, Lord, while I'm awake
    and watch over me while I sleep
that awake, I might keep watch with you
    and asleep rest in your peace...

Amen. 
 
Forgive Us, Lord by Nathan Surgenor
 
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Forgive me Lord for I have sinned 
I let temptation walk right in 
And now I need Your grace again 
Forgive me Father 
 
Forgive me Lord when I ignore 
Your signs of love that seek to warn 
That I've been down this road before 
Forgive me Father 
 
Remember Your mercy - Remember Your grace 
Oh Lord of truth and life 
And as we hold fast to Your loving embrace 
Forgive us Father 
 
Forgive me Lord when I excuse 
Those things that damage and abuse 
Oh give me wisdom to refuse 
To trust them Father 
 
Chorus 
 
We need Your love We need Your life 
We need Your truth and grace in us 
So breakthrough our hearts 
Reshape our minds 
Come have Your way oh Lord with us 
 
For we are the dust, children of sin 
But You are the hope in each new day 
So renew our lives And shatter our night 
Rescue us Father as we pray 
 
Chorus 
 
Father Forgive me Lord for all I've done 
That goes against "Your kingdom come" 
Oh may my will and Yours be one 
My Heavenly Father

  

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Pause for Prayer: Wednesday in Holy Week

I've been developing and posting this Pause for Prayer on Wednesday of Holy Week since 2008.  It's longer than a usual daily post and includes the following:
    - some background on Spy Wednesday
    - some thoughts on betrayal
    - Rufus Wainwright's wrenching musical setting 
        of the Lamb of God
    - my Pause for Prayer entry
    - and another (gentler, healing) setting of the Lamb of God 
        by Samuel Barber

Spy Wednesday: Just about everyone, believer and non-believer alike, identifies Judas with betrayal. Wednesday of Holy Week is called Spy Wednesday because on this day at mass we hear the story of Judas' traitorous scheming:

One of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests and said, “What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?” They paid him thirty pieces of silver, and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over...  On the evening of the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread, Jesus reclined at table with the Twelve. And while they were eating, he said, “Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.” Deeply distressed at this, they began to say to him one after another, “Surely it is not I, Lord?” He said in reply, “He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me is the one who will betray me. The Son of Man indeed goes, as it is written of him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed. It would be better for that man if he had never been born.” Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply, “Surely it is not I, Rabbi?” He answered, “You have said so.”        

Betrayal is an ugly word...
 
Here are two hard questions:
    who has betrayed me?  
    by whom have I been betrayed? 
 
What wounds, what scars, what sorrow
    has betrayal left in my life?
        in the lives of those whom I've betrayed?
 
Fr. Aidan Kavanagh spoke of Holy Thursday as
    the night in which Jesus was betrayed 
        - by the worst in us all...
 
That's a discomforting perspective on Judas' betrayal:
    it's easy to point an accusing finger at Judas
    - not so easy to accuse myself...
 
On the night Jesus was betrayed,
    Judas stood in for all of us,
for all of us who have betrayed 
    our God and our neighbor...
 
And the next day, Jesus, innocent and without sin, 
    stood in for us,
carrying on his shoulders 
    and suffering in his wounds
the burden of all our infidelities, 
    our sins - and our betrayals... 
 
On the Cross, 
    Jesus, the Lamb of God
        takes away the sins of the world...

Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world: 
   have mercy on us!  
 
Here's  Rufus Wainwright's contemporary setting of the Agnus Dei (Lamb of God).  The opening sounds here drill into our hearts, our souls, to precisely the place where the Lord's mercy meets us: in our sins and betrayal of God and of others.  While Wainwright's music  might help us image Judas plotting against Jesus - it doesn't abandon us to Judas' despair - rather, it moves us beyond to the consolation of the One who takes our sins away, finally resolving  in great peace: dona nobis pacem (give us peace).
 
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Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: miserere nobis.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
    have mercy on us.

Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: miserere nobis.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
   have mercy on us.  
Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: dona nobis pacem.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
    grant us peace.

Pause for Prayer

With the light of your truth, Lord, 
    open my heart and help me be honest 
in seeing how I've betrayed you:
    how I've taken your mercy and love for granted...
    how I've presumed upon your forgiveness...
    how, out of loyalty to the crowd, 
        the latest fad or myself
    I've betrayed you in thought, word and deed...

With the light of your truth, Lord, 
    open my heart and help me be honest 
in seeing how I've betrayed 
    my family, friends and colleagues       
        at home, at work, at school, in my community...
    how I've betrayed my neighbor 
        with rumors and gossip...
    how I've betrayed the poor and hungry 
      with my greedy and wasteful ways...
    how I've betrayed the truth 
        with my lies and cheating...  
  
With the light of your truth, Lord, 
    open my heart and help me be honest 
in seeing how I've betrayed myself:
    how I've been dishonest with and about
      the person you made me to be...
    how I've betrayed my own word
        in being unfaithful...
    how I've betrayed your image within me,
      the image in which you created me,
        by choosing the cheap and the tawdry... 

With the light of your truth, Lord, 
    open my heart and help me be honest 
        in seeing how I, like Judas, hand you over
            for money and prestige, 
            out of pride and in fear,     
            in selfishness and presumption,
            and in my vain, self-serving efforts      
                to win the praise of others...

Forgive me the times I've betrayed, you, Lord...
Forgive me the times I've betrayed my neighbor... 
And help me forgive, Lord, 
    those who have betrayed me...

Amen. 
 
And finally... here are some healing sounds 
    from Samuel Barber's much gentler setting of Agnus Dei
        performed by the incomparable Ensemble Altera 
 
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Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: miserere nobis.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
    have mercy on us.

Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: miserere nobis.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
   have mercy on us.  
Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: dona nobis pacem.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
    grant us peace.
 

  

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