A Concord Pastor Comments: Pause for Prayer: WEDNESDAY 4/16

Wednesday of Holy Week is sometimes called Spy Wednesday because the gospel for this day's Mass relates how Judas (the "spy") conspired to betray Christ and hand him over to the authorities for thirty pieces of silver.

This is a longer-than-usual daily prayer post: it includes a scripture, a brief reflection, a haunting song (not to be missed!) and a regular Pause for Prayer. It's Holy Week - take the few extra minutes this post asks of you and offer that time as prayer to God...

Scripture: Judas the spy, the betrayer...

One of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests and said, “What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?” They paid him thirty pieces of silver, and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over...

When it was evening, Jesus reclined at table with the Twelve. And while they were eating, he said, “Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.” Deeply distressed at this, they began to say to him one after another, “Surely it is not I, Lord?” He said in reply, “He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me is the one who will betray me. The Son of Man indeed goes, as it is written of him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed. It would be better for that man if he had never been born.” Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply, “Surely it is not I, Rabbi?” Jesus answered, “You have said so.” Matthew 26:14

Reflection...

How has betrayal played out in your life? Have you ever been betrayed? Is there someone you've betrayed? Have you been accused of betrayal? What wound, what scars has betrayal left in your life, in the lives of those around you?

Benedictine priest Aidan Kavanagh used to speak of Holy Thursday and the Last Supper as "the night in which Jesus was betrayed by the worst in us all..." That offers us all a good perspective on Judas' betrayal of Jesus. It's easy to accuse Judas of betraying Christ - but not so easy to accuse ourselves.

On the night Christ was betrayed, Judas stood in for all of us who have betrayed God's love and our neighbor's love.

Innocent and without sin, Jesus then carried on his shoulders and suffered in his wounds the burden of our betrayal... Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world: have mercy on us!

Song...

Here's a very contemporary setting of the Agnus Dei (Lamb of God) by Rufus Wainwright. The opening sounds drill into our hearts and the depths of our betrayals. But that's also where God's mercy meets us: right in our sinfulness, where we most need his healing love and the gift of his peace. This song might help us image Judas plotting against Jesus and help us look more honestly at our own betrayals. But the wrenching music doesn't leave us in Judas' despair or our own remorse - it moves us beyond to the consolation of the One who takes our sins away, and finally, the piece resolves in great peace: dona nobis pacem...

Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: miserere nobis.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
have mercy on us.
Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: miserere nobis.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:

have mercy on us.
Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi: dona nobis pacem.
Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world:
grant us peace.

Pause for Prayer...

With the light of your truth, Lord, open my heart

and help me be honest in seeing how I've betrayed you...

how I've betrayed your love...

how I've taken you and your mercy for granted...

how I've presumed upon your forgiveness...

how I've betrayed you in thought, word and deed,

out of loyalty to the crowd, the custom, the fad...

With the light of your truth, Lord, open my heart

and help me be honest in seeing

how I've betrayed the people around me, family and friends...

how I've betrayed others at work, at school, and in my community...

how I've betrayed the poor and hungry with my greed and gluttony...

how I've betrayed the truth with my lies and cheating...

how I've betrayed others with gossip and half-truths...

With the light of your truth, Lord, open my heart

and help me be honest in seeing how I've betrayed myself...

how I've been dishonest with and about the person
you made me to be...

how I've betrayed my given word, my promises, my vows...

how I've betrayed the best in me by choosing the cheap and tawdry...

how I've betrayed your image within me,

the divine image in which you created me...

With the light of your truth, Lord, open my heart

and help me be honest in seeing how, with Judas,
I betray you and hand you over

   for money, for prestige, in fear, out of pride,
      in selfishness and presumption,
in my vain efforts to win the praise of others...

Help me forgive those who have betrayed me, Lord:
   forgive me my betrayals

   as I forgive those who have betrayed me...

Help me stand in the light of your truth, Lord,
   acknowledging my sins, my unfaithfulness
         and my need for your mercy and pardon...

Amen.